abbazabba

Wed, 27 Apr 2011 03:57:04 GMT

I'm posting this in honor of my Irish blood and for my Dad. I miss him.

Bear Pride 17

Wed, 06 Apr 2011 15:16:28 GMT

I'll be in Chicago for Bear Pride 17. Booked everything. I need this I think.

Hope to see y'all there!

Sat, 26 Mar 2011 02:11:44 GMT

Bear411 cannot possibly be that busy on Friday nights.

More of the same...

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 18:38:05 GMT

Since 1980, when i was 5, the money has been sucked out of the economy by business and the wealthy. The homogenization of our country has accelerated because it's good for "business". Jobs have been offshored at alarming rates. Multinationals who are loyal to no one but themselves have consolidated and consolidated again.

We used to have protections in place. These protections were in place through the most prosperous times in our country. I don't understand why people let this happen. I don't understand why people think Reagan is a hero, he was the one that started all of this. The average wage in adjusted dollars from 1980 to 2008 increased a mere $800. So much for doing better than our parents. Thanks Baby Boomers.

Tue, 15 Feb 2011 18:45:09 GMT

So my boss, from Augusta, GA, shows up at work today to write me up.

Tue, 01 Feb 2011 05:25:17 GMT

Every time I hear Jay-Z, I think of Sam and Dave, and realize how fucking ridiculous our world is.

Sun, 30 Jan 2011 20:46:22 GMT

Can't help feeling betrayed. Invite someone into your life, then your family. Share your insecurities, aspirations, and hopes. It's like it's all been shit on. And people wonder why I don't trust others.

Another great day

Sun, 30 Jan 2011 02:34:41 GMT

I've been dumped. Evidently, I'm not worth the 3 hour drive and the cost of a tank of gas it takes to get to me. Should I try to remain friends? It's difficult to trust someone who you've let in so far and has rejected you.

Tue, 25 Jan 2011 05:20:31 GMT

I hope that one day, the emotional scars from my childhood will fade, I'll be comfortable with myself, and think I'm worth it. It is only this hope that sustains me.

Missing my father

Tue, 21 Dec 2010 17:51:55 GMT

This year, I've missed my father more than since he passed. The eclipse last night reminded me of the time in the early 1980's, my parents took us out to see a lunar eclipse. The woke us up late, and we drove down the road to a huge cornfield. That cornfield is now a subdivision called Rural Point Estates. It was cold that night. We took folding webbed lawn chairs and blankets. We sat as a family, huddled in the cold, and watched the moon seemingly disappear. I remember that it took a while, just as it did last night. My sister watched it through my Dad's camera, because he a had a zoom lens. We tried to take pictures, but it was hard to tell on the prints what it was due to lack of light and the smallness of the moon in the picture. We sat out there for hours and had a good time as a family. When it was over, and the sun started to come up, we went to Howard Johnson's for breakfast. Although it's kind of a silly thing to remember, I think I'll always remember that event with warmth and fondness.

WikiLeaks

Sat, 23 Oct 2010 19:04:39 GMT

I know a lot of folks are mad about wikileaks. No matter what they do, I feel it to be necessary. Since we have no investigative journalism in our country, we unfortunately have to rely on people with questionable motives. I will always choose more freedom of information then less. If we don't demand visibility of our government internally, then we must suffer the possibility of having this information exposed externally.

MMMMMMMMMM

Sun, 10 Oct 2010 23:17:09 GMT

Made a big pot of Vegetable Beef soup!

Wed, 06 Oct 2010 14:50:54 GMT

I feel like the whole damn world has gone crazy.

Deep Thought

Fri, 23 Jul 2010 15:51:47 GMT

Many businesses talk about World Class Service. Since most of the world live in horrible conditions and abject poverty, why would you want anything World Class?

Damned cult of the iPhone

Thu, 24 Jun 2010 15:18:38 GMT

The iPhone has made me wish like never before that they had never broken up the telephone company. That's right, I'd rather have everyone out there with a model 2500 desk set rented from Bell and attached via wire. Life was so much better when all the phones were the same

I love it

Tue, 22 Jun 2010 04:21:05 GMT

I love the message and the Wall of Sound production!

Tue, 15 Jun 2010 03:37:15 GMT

For those in the know, I made it home.

Old School

Wed, 09 Jun 2010 06:25:38 GMT

Not many folks working with film anymore. I love the color of this Fuji Velvia 100F.

Master of all I survey!

Tue, 08 Jun 2010 19:54:37 GMT

From the wrong time

Fri, 14 May 2010 18:46:19 GMT

Through much of my life, I've felt like I'm from the wrong time. It's not that I lament living in the time I'm in, but my interests, beliefs and what not would have been more in vogue for someone my age about 30 or 40 years ago. I prefer vinyl records. I prefer local businesses. I prefer film cameras. It would seem I take the outdated choice every time.

It's not that I crave nostalgia, or resist change. I suspect that I resent learning something when it was more difficult, and technology makes it easy.

Question

Fri, 23 Apr 2010 20:32:50 GMT

If the airlines have been losing money my whole life, how come any of them are still in business?

You can't go back home again

Tue, 20 Apr 2010 03:29:58 GMT

I am sad that another local business has been annihilated. First it was Miller and Rhoades, then Thalhimers, Helig-Meyers, FFV, Circuit City, and now Ukrop's. If we lose Pleasant's Hardware, the homogenization of my hometown will be complete.

Things I may have learned recently

Tue, 06 Apr 2010 17:40:40 GMT

I've been going through some changes in life. We all do from time to time. I entered Weight Watchers in August of 2008 to shut up a friend. I signed up at that meeting and have been going since. Although my weight loss hasn't been spectacular, 60 pounds at most, and at about 50 pounds off currently from my heaviest; it's done wonders for me in other ways.

This was the jumping point for entering therapy, changing medication that had kept me in low level depression for years, and as cheesy as it sounds, self discovery.

When this started, I was in the crumbling phase of a relationship with someone that was probably not healthy for me. This would happen 2 more times. I have generally consented to meet or date anyone who showed me some attention. I was far too shy and had far too much self loathing to feel I deserved anything more. I'm still shy in large groups, but it's something I'm working on.

It seems to have taken 35 years, and inspiration from the most unlikely of places, but I have found a measure of self worth. Things people have said to me, confronting my Mom about my parents taking me out of college when I was 20, living on my own, the end of a close friendship, the beginning of some others, and mostly, finding out that the problems I have can be overcome, and are not my fault.

Recently, I read on MSNBC in response to the poor 15 year old girl who hanged herself because of the treatment she received from her classmates a composite of letters and emails that people from across the country had sent in. Those who have been bullied or teased to an extreme as children suffer what is essentially chronic emotional abuse. I'll not say that mine is more or less severe a case than any other person's, but it helped to see that there were others who had been dealt these blows and survived. It's terrible to me that anyone has experienced the pain that I have, but it's good to know that it's recoverable. I haven't been sure most of my life of that. It's awful though, that I received this solace after the suicide of a 15 year old.

Currently I'm doing pretty well. A change in medication last summer has given me an emotional range I've not had in over 10 years. Now I'm dealing less with hurt from years ago, but more on trying to figure out who I really am. It sucks that I'm doing this 10 to 15 years after most people, but I suppose, better late than never.

Autobiography

Wed, 31 Mar 2010 21:36:03 GMT

I was asked what the title of my autobiography would be. The only thing I could think to say was, "Potential Wasted".

It was a gut response. I wonder if it's really that bad.

Long-Haired Hare - באגס באני וזמר האופרה

Tue, 30 Mar 2010 16:53:50 GMT

There's something very strange about Bugs Bunny in Hebrew with English songs.